bad mood, bad mood..arhhhhh !!!!

Things didn't get smooth for my whole last week. There had been a moment when I thought my work all this while may go to waste. Plus the MDO debate was cancelled at last minute...Really really wana shout....fXXk you, life!!

And here came my worst THURSDAY later on. A birthday party that made my mood fall to the lowest point had dampened my original getting-better emotion. I couldn't keep my head cool really. Yet I forced myself to fake my smile the whole night. Looked like I was really okay, okay to see my friend confess to the SOMEBODy, okay to keep myself in a distance with her, okay to take things easy....and so on... I hate myself!!! You are just a useless fellow, idiot!! And why again and again you always fall into this kind of stupid illusion?? Just because of some unrealistic fascinating chats??

John john john john, how stupid can you be? When can you ever learn your lesson?

But still, I have decided to let it go... goodbye, xiao bing, because I don't wana be jiang jun again.

Everything seemed to be so real, yet unreal. It reminds me of Socrates' words: Reality is illusion.